Stop complaining about where you are at in your life, the decisions you have made, the partner you are with, the life YOU have chosen.
You get to make your life everything you want it to be. So do it. Stop being lazy. Stop making excuses. Stop waiting for something to happen. Your partner isn’t always going to make all the decisions for you. Your job isn’t always going to be there for you to fall back on because you never followed YOUR dreams.
I bet if I sat down and really thought about my life, there are plenty of changes I would make. Trivial ones all the way up to big ones. I’ll make some time to do this. I love lists, I’ll make a list of what I would like to see differently in my life right now. Then I will take the steps to get there. What about you?
What a busy weekend I had! Oh. My. Goodness.
Friday night we had friends over. Sort of impromptu. We do that occasionally. It usually rocks. We had a good time just hanging out and before I knew it I should have been in bed hours before. I got up at 5:30ish and went into work to pick up some OT. Saturday evening we had Robert’s birthday party. We started off at our house to pre funk and have some cake, which no one really ate. Who really wants cake before a night out? lol
We all car pooled to the Jet and started the party early (free cover before 9:00). No wonder! There isn’t a soul in the place that early! lol But, there was a lot of us so that made up for it! Robert had a great time. Some old faces came out to celebrate. Some surprise appearances were made and it was a really fun time. I wish those who didn’t come out and made no attempt to let Robert know whether they could make it would just stop pretending you are his friend. You are not his friends. He doesn’t need your friendship out of pity either. The occasional, “let’s meet up for a beer” text message does not maintain a friendship. especially when you never follow through. I wish Robert had the guts to tell you off or that he would let me. The things I would say to you…
Ahh… Anyway…Robert tried not to get too drunk, despite the efforts of many. I could tell because he kept passing off the shots people were buying him and the waitress kept calling him out. He was still pretty hung over the next morning but nowhere near as hung over as he has been in the past.
We got home at 2:00am and Parker woke me at 4am to eat and 5am to be changed. I wanted to ask him for a night off. Parker, mommy needs some sleep! lol That didn’t happen. Then Peyton woke me up for the day at 7:00am… Oh my goodness… I had a baby shower in Oak Harbor and I took Peyton with. That is a long drive when you have had sleep. Try making it with no sleep and a toddler. Then the shower had a TON of children whose mothers let them run wild and were driving me bonkers… I needed sleep. I made the drive home, dropped my mom and her friend off, walked in my front door and wanted to fall on my face. I fed Parker and got him to bed. Kissed Robert and went to bed. This was 6pm! It took a bit to get to sleep but I put the ear plugs in and I went to sleep… All night!! Thank you for that husband 🙂
I sit here at work and I wonder if I am the only person in the world that has so many thoughts running through my head that I cannot form one, complete, well thought out blog. I have so much I want to talk about. So many world issues I want to discuss. But, because there is so much in there I don’t even know where to start. So, I guess we will just start and this blog might get messy but just go with me…
So, there is this girl and I thought we were friends but she came for a visit recently and I realized that I don’t really know her at all and what I learned about her, I don’t really like. I’ll try to give you the short version. She told me she was coming to town to get away for a bit. She needed to clear her head. Her marriage was on the rocks and she needed a girls trip. She said she loved her husband and she didn’t want to leave him but she has lost 130 pounds in the last year (gastric bypass) and a lot has changed in her life, including how everyone treats her. So, she wanted some time with her old friends who know who she is and will treat her like she has always been treated. Little did I know, this wasn’t a girls trip at all. She had guys lined up to see before she ever stepped on a plane and she had no plans to stay with her husband when she returned. I was really disappointed in her character, the way she acted while here and the lies she told me before she came. The way she portrays herself on social media and the way she acted while here was very different. I am trying not to judge her because I know we all sin differently. But, goodness… I’m just so disappointed in her.
Next… Work is crazy. I mean super crazy. There have been so many changes over the past year and there are so many more headed my way. In all these changes have been so many opportunities for growth. I have learned so much about myself, my teammates and the way other people handle difficult situations and emotions. We have lost our boss’ which both worked here for 20+ years. No one ever thought we would see the day so when it happened it was a huge surprise and I think everyone felt very betrayed. Then as details came out we all felt like we had been lied to for so many years by these people and disrespected and all sorts of emotions that were not fun to confront. Now, we all face each other in team meetings and try to sort through these emotions with each other while we still face them towards each other. It’s all so interesting. Today, I was talking to one of my co-workers and she said, “I’m not sure I want to know what is going on right now. I was just starting to feel better about this place.” That statement got me thinking, Is it really better to just put our head in the sand? Will that really make us feel better? I know the answer for me at least. No! I like to deal with my feelings, get them out in the open and move on. Of course that is who I am and why I think I am happier than I used to be. I don’t think we should be afraid to feel, be afraid to explore those feelings and I definitely don’t think we should be afraid to tell someone we feel one way or another. It has been very refreshing under the new management here at work. We are encouraged to keep things out in the open, in a respectful and trusting way.
I think it is important to trust someones intent. Which is really huge if you think about it. If you can’t trust that someone’s intent was NOT to hurt you then you probably should not be their friend. If you can’t trust that your spouse did NOT say something to intentionally hurt you then you better re-evaluate your marriage. If you can trust someones intent is always with the best intent then you will be good. That is where my head is at. I know that not everyone always has the best intent but if I have that mentality I will be a happier person. Especially in the workplace. Everything in my life has changed in the last year and everything is better. When you choose to change your point of view, your perspective on life, your life changes. My life has changed. The people I have surrounded myself with have changed (for the most part) and with that, new opportunities have come, a new body, new workplace opportunities with a new, wonderful work from home position, new hair with a great, talented stylist who I adore. Instead of one beautiful child to chase I now have two to keep me very occupied. My brain is so full right now I didn’t even scrape the surface of what I wanted to write about. When I am less scatter brained I will touch on more of what I wanted to talk about. Like… Pistorious, Rising child care costs, potty training, teething, Danika Patrick, the app iMadFace, my obsession with Pinterest and so much more!!!
Until then have a great weekend!!!
And she is pretty incredible with a knitting needle! A friend of mine made this adorable hood for Peyton. It’s a little big right now which is perfect for Peyton because she will grow into it. It took her all of… No time at all!!! She is amazing. This is the second project she has made for Peyton and she has made Parker an adorable owl hat too. She also made me some cute boot cuffs. I keep hinting to her that I ned more of those. Maybe I should do more than hint. I’ll send her a link to this blog 😉 Anyway, check out this amazing hood!
And here is an example of the hood that she based this one off of.
So cute!!!! I just love it. That little girl is so stinken cute too!!! Thanks Hannah!!!